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I can't stop thinking...

... what if it were my husband?

dancingshaman aka Alex, my friend of many years and married to one of my best gal pals of many years, died tonight while I was out.

Thank God, I called him last week. Thank God, he was lucid and laughing and made me laugh, too. We had such a good talk. It wasn't a good-bye talk. It was a "I'll talk to you soon" thing but stuff that needed to be said was said. We had plans to talk next Monday. I was going to teach him to Skype.

I don't know what's going on now with the funeral and stuff. If there is one, I'll be flying down for it.

I'm pretty tore up with conflicting thoughts and out-of-control emotions.

Godspeed, Alex. I'll miss you.


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Dec. 2nd, 2009 06:57 am (UTC)
I promise I will help Johanna broadcast memorial/wake details to his friends when the time comes. There WILL be one. It doesn't help you tonight, but you won't miss it.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:16 am (UTC)
Thank you. I appreciate it.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:23 am (UTC)
I appreciate knowing that. I'm trying to figure out if I can make it. I had hoped, as morbid as it is, that this would happen in the new year, after my legal issues settled somewhat and I had more liquidity.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:40 am (UTC)
I don't know her well enough to say more than "I'm so sorry," and I'd never interacted with him at all online. He sounds like such a lovely person. I feel just awful, for her, for him, for you, for his loved ones.

We're here, should you need us. I'm so sorry.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:41 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry, Jenn; if there's something I can do for you, let me know.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:58 am (UTC)
I'm in pieces right beside you Jen. There was nobody like him.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 09:54 am (UTC)
I only met him once or twice and half-assed knew him from the old Cthulhu Live list, but I'm sorry to hear of his passing. Our thoughts are with all of you.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 12:26 pm (UTC)
I was sorry when this happened. I only ever interacted with him online and never got to meet him.

Dec. 2nd, 2009 02:14 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear that.
It seems to have been a year for this sort of thing happening, its just horrendous. Hope everyone is as well as they can be.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 03:31 pm (UTC)
You (and all who loved him) have my deepest sympathies. *hugs*
Dec. 2nd, 2009 04:04 pm (UTC)
really sorry to hear this hon. *hugs*
Dec. 2nd, 2009 05:22 pm (UTC)
he was one of a kind.
Dec. 2nd, 2009 07:48 pm (UTC)
Dec. 2nd, 2009 11:15 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss... I wish I could have known him on this side of the veil. All I've read about him tells me I'd have loved him as much as you all do.
Dec. 3rd, 2009 01:44 am (UTC)
I never knew or met him, but it's pretty obvious what a remarkable person he was. My condolences for your loss and a loss to so many people.
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