Jennifer (gaaneden) wrote,

I can't stop thinking...

... what if it were my husband?

dancingshaman aka Alex, my friend of many years and married to one of my best gal pals of many years, died tonight while I was out.

Thank God, I called him last week. Thank God, he was lucid and laughing and made me laugh, too. We had such a good talk. It wasn't a good-bye talk. It was a "I'll talk to you soon" thing but stuff that needed to be said was said. We had plans to talk next Monday. I was going to teach him to Skype.

I don't know what's going on now with the funeral and stuff. If there is one, I'll be flying down for it.

I'm pretty tore up with conflicting thoughts and out-of-control emotions.

Godspeed, Alex. I'll miss you.

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