"... when the year, too, dies..."
So, we had the wind storm of 2006 with hurricane winds that knocked out power all over the Seattle area, I spent some of my black out time at the Nexus. I spent the other half of it in Oregon. This black out taught me a couple of things:
1. All my friends already know I'm ready for this sort of thing due to my apocalyptic fascination. More than one person (here and afar) commented, "I knew I didn't have to worry about you. You're ready for this sort of thing."
2. I'm not completely ready. Oh, I could have survived just fine with the food and water situation but I do have some holes to plug.
a. I really do need to get my fireplace swept and get some firewood on site. I have enough blankets and stuff to keep me warm but there is a comfort issue here.
b. I need to get some gas for my car and store it. We aren't in a situation where I can use my siphoning kit. Taking gas from abandoned cars is still illegal. So, I need some gas to allow me to get places when the gas stations are all shut down.
c. I need to look into whether or not the HOA is going to allow me to wire in a diesel generator into my condo for when the power goes out again for more than a couple of hours.
It was nice to know that I didn't need to panic when the lights went out but I tell you, watching for streetlights and feeling the elation at seeing one lit was a very interesting experience. I'm gonna keep on plugging my apocalyptic holes as I go on.
The Family Reunion of 2006 turned out to be pretty darned good. Loud. But good. With 3 teens, 2 pre-teens, 2 dogs, 1 puppy and football or video games on the TV at all times, it was nothing but an amazing cacophony of noise all the time. My poor brain couldn't take it. Fortunately, they stuck me on the top floor in one of the twins' rooms so I could escape from time to time.
Family is a funny thing. I haven't seen my immediate family for years and I had not seen my in-laws for more than 2 decades. Not to mention never having met various spouses and kids. Yet, there was a certain cohesion and definitely a family feel. Habits span generations and that was really interesting to watch.
I really like my in-laws on my father's side. At least, his eldest sister and her whole extended family. I got along with everyone. Played with the kids. Ran away from a conversation that threatened to turn political. Impressed people with my upcoming book and my choices for the next year.
I was afraid that I was going to return from this reunion without a family. Instead, I gained about a dozen more and that makes me happier than I can express.
I pulled the Death Card for today's reading. It is appropriate in many ways for me. The Death Tarot card signifies change. This change may have a destructive quality. It may not. But it is the signifier for a birth, transformation, change or renewal.
This next year is all about my transformation and rebirth. Change and growth is not easy or painless. I hate looking at my checkbook and being scared of what I see there. Or potentially see. I hate wondering if I'm making a mistake. I hate wondering if I'm going to succeed.
But you know what? At the same time, I am thrilled to pieces. I know what I'm working on of my own stuff. I know when I need it to be done. I know what other stuff I'm going to be chasing after. This is my dream and I'm going to live it as much as I can.
My goals for the next year are as follows:
1. 2 completed novels.
2. 24 completed new short stories - 12 Kendrick for TEoP, 12 others.
3. 60 submissions throughout the year. This includes query letters and query packages.
4. 50 completed Freaky Friday Fiction pieces.
All of these goals are doable. They are challenging but realistic. I just need to be consistent and productive. I need to work every day of my work week. I can do this and I will do it.
Tarot Card for the Day: Death