May 11, 2005
Friends & Writing
Last week, I got to spend a lot of time with Greg (aka Vulpin) while he was up here for training for his new job. It was great. I got to introduce him to some of my friends, show him around my home and have him meet my cat (who liked him and only tried to bite him a couple of times). I took him out to Rikki Rikki for sushi and to Greenwood for Chinese. All of which met with his approval.
The coolest thing about the visit is that I got to do some touristy things with him. We went to the Science Fiction Museum and the Space Needle. The Sci-Fi museum was awesome. I'm so glad I went. I'm a member now. Going through the museum made me want to take a month off to do nothing but read. There's so much I haven't read yet and I seem to have so little time these days. I really want to go again.
At the Space Needle, Greg and I decided to have the overpriced brunch ($38/person but included the $13 price to ride to the top of the Needle) that turned out to be actually very, very tasty. I was surprised. I had been warned that the food in the restaurant was pretty mediocre. I guess they got a new menu and/or chef. The three course meal was worth the price. Plus, eating in a rotating restaurant is really fun. But, once again, it proved to me that I have no sense of direction at all. The only thing I could figure out where the different bodies of water.
On the Writing front, I have good and bad news. My poem, "The Answer" is being published in Voracity Beat's, The Right Words, Volume 1. It is planned to be out by Fall 2005. That was nice and unexpected. On the bad side, one of the big named authors had to drop out of writing for Grants Pass. He is too far behind on his latest novel. Understandable but I am still sulking a lot. The other author is still juggling his schedule but hasn't said no, yet.
I just remembered that the due date for Grants Pass is May 15th. I may have to push that out a bit. Also, I'm trying to decide if I want to post a Call for Submission on the Ralan list or not.
I'm in between contracts for Sovereign Press right now but I've been told Holy Order of Stars is due out by July 2005 and Time of the Twins is due out by Gen Con 2005. I think I'm going to start focusing on Kendrick for now. I know they have more stuff for me coming up but I think that will be in late summer.
I got my final retention bonus this last week for staying on from PlaceWare to MS Live Meeting. It's pretty nice. I'm happy with it. However, this puts me in the position of no longer being obligated to the Live Meeting team at work. It is weird. These two years of officially working for Microsoft have gone by quickly. Now that I have a choice on whether or not I want to go or stay, I really don't know what I want to do. I still haven't decided if I want to shift into a Program Manager position or remain in Test. What I think I really want is a Producer or Designer position over in MSgames but I suspect those positions are few and far in-between. That's not going to stop me from looking into it.
I've been in an angry mood lately. I'm not sure why. It makes me impatient and a lot less tolerable of what I consider to be whining, stupidity or ignorance. I've found myself snapping at friends and being a lot more blunt than usual. I don't mean to be and I try to catch myself before I lash out but I'm not always successful; especially when someone is venting at me over something I consider inane or someone's blatant attempt to manipulate them. Sure, it's easy to ask, "Why do you put up with it?" or "Why do you let them manipulate you like that?" Not so easy to deal with it most of the time. Of course, in the mood I've been in, I would lay the smack down on the offending person, be considered a bitch and honestly not care.
I know my mood isn't cycle related since that's over and done with now. It might be related to allergies and tiredness. I'm not sure. I just know I've been fantasizing about ripping some people's throats out with my teeth and that is never a good sign. Even my dreams, what bits I remember of them, have been angry and violent.
So, I've been trying to channel this unexplained anger (sometimes rage) into angry music and movement. Unfortunately, I've proven too uncoordinated for DDR which is too bad. Looks like I'm going to have to go to good old fashioned walking/biking/elliptical at the ProClub. I hope this mood breaks soon. I don't like walking around like a ticking time bomb of emotional anger ready to lash out.
Tarot Card for the Day: Six of Swords