Jennifer (gaaneden) wrote,
Jennifer
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Time & Tide...

This gets harder by the minute. My only saving grace is that it comes in random waves of loss instead of a consistant pounding. I watched him load all of the big stuff out of his apartment and into the moving trunk. I didn't really help. I was doing my best to not cry. I'm not leaving him for a week but, I am leaving him... and everyone else. Right now, I'm focused on him. Watching (and sometimes helping) him dismantle his apartment was harder than I thought it would be. Of course, it never occurred to me that my mind would equate his moving out of his old place as him leaving me. Or, leaving everything we were familiar with together. I hope to God this feeling doesn't get any worse. I already feel like my heart is slowly being torn into little pieces.

I don't want to be a maudlin mess for tonight. I want Girls' Night Out to a fun occasion instead of a soppy mess. I guess I should make sure I have kleenex on hand, just in case.

As a side note, f*ck you, Michelle Branch, for having a song that actually hit me emotionally because of what's going on right now in my life. Your music is supposed to be bubble gum - sweet, chewy, fluffy. Something with a catchy tune that I can sing along to and not think about.


I'd Rather Be In Love
I cannot help it I couldn't stop it if I tried
The same old heartbeat fills the emptiness I have inside
And I've heard that you can't fight love, so I won't complain
'Cause why would I stop the fire that keeps me going on?

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you

Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me

Why are we afraid to be in love?
To be loved
I can't explain it
I know it's tough to be loved

And I feel you holding me

Oh, oh
And when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone

And I'd rather be in love
Yes, I'd rather be in love
Oh, I'd rather be in love with you

And I feel you holding me, oh
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