I am once again living in terror and anticipation of my email. Too many big things are due to come in soon: A response from an agent, two final responses from anthologies, a response from the producer and RPG assignments. It's like being on a rollercoaster for the first time. You have no idea where the twists and turns or drops will be. You don't know if you're going to shouting "Yay!!" or screaming in terror. It's hard sometimes. But this is my life.