Jennifer (gaaneden) wrote,

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Happy Jenn

Ice gave me a call unexpectedly tonight. We talked for over an hour. It was really good. It looks like I'm going to be in DC with him during the last week of December which means, I need to buy plane tickets NOW.

It's funny. He's working in Washington in the Pentagon doing high-mucky-muck analyst type stuff for even higher-mucky-muck people and he told me tonight, "This is so surreal. I can't get over the feeling that I'm living someone else's life. Decisions I make affect X, Y and Z. When I realized it, I got overwhelmed. I had to take a step back... I looked at myself and realized that this whole situation... my job... who I work for... all of it... frightened me."

"Then, you got over it and went back to work, right?" I asked.


"You know what...? Courage is doing what needs to be done after you've realized the situation and realized you are afraid. Courage is the actions you take after that moment. You, my dear, have a buttload - and that is a technical term - a buttload of courage and strength."

"How do you know?"

"I just do. That's who I am and who you are. I feel better knowing that there are people like you working in [X department of the government]."

It's true, too. Ice is one of the most courageous men I know. I admire him greatly. It'll be really good to see him again.

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