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Sometimes, Everything is Okay

Before I start this little story—everything is fine. I’m fine. For a bit there, I wasn’t sure but now it is official and all.

Right, back to the beginning. Back in October, I had my first mammogram. Ow. It sucked AND they found an anomaly. It was only 2.8 millimeters across and they weren’t really sure what it was but I had to come back in about six months to get it rechecked.

Yes, I know it is May and that makes it eight months. I can’t help it if I don’t like doctors and the thought of having “something bad” found made me even more gun shy. But two reminder letters later and here I am.

This time, it was only one breast and it still sucked. But this time I really know why. I got to see how much pressure they were putting on my delicate bit. For the two views I saw the pressure per square inch. It was 286.1 pounds on the angle and 436.2 pounds not on an angle. Let me tell you that’s a lot of pressure.

In any case, the blip was bigger. 3.6 millimeters. And big enough to see if it was just a fluid filled cyst... or the big C word.

Having had friends die from cancer, I can tell you I had my private freak out last night. Today, I was just waiting for the shoe to drop or to not drop.

This time, fluid filled cyst for the win. Sometimes, everything is okay.

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gardenwaltz
May. 9th, 2012 01:32 am (UTC)
hurray for cysts! I'd take a little 'c' over the big 'C' any day.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 02:07 am (UTC)
Yes! Hurrah for little "c"s.
strixluna
May. 9th, 2012 01:36 am (UTC)
I'm glad to hear that things are ok!
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 02:07 am (UTC)
Me, too! I was a bit nervous.
evildmguy
May. 9th, 2012 01:50 am (UTC)
That's what mine was. I'm glad yours is a cyst.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 02:07 am (UTC)
Me, too. Cysts are much less scary.
wastededucation
May. 9th, 2012 02:07 am (UTC)
That's good. The option would be bad, very bad...
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 02:08 am (UTC)
You're telling me. I was hoping it wasn't. And for once, it was good news.
calendula_witch
May. 9th, 2012 02:09 am (UTC)
Glad everything is okay! I have a cyst too. That follow-up scan is a scary scary thing. Fortunately they did mine quickly, I didn't wait six (or eight) months. :/ That must have been very hard.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 02:17 am (UTC)
Mine was so small they had to let it get bigger or disappear to decide if it was something to be worried about.
melchar
May. 9th, 2012 02:59 am (UTC)
Very glad it was a cyst and not worse.

As for the boobie squishing device, I have felt your pain. Yowch! I've asked every technician I've had & they've agreed that if a -guy- had to get their testicles squahed that way [or -any- part of their sensitive selves crushed] - that the machine would be redesigned 2 minutes later, so that it wasn't an exercize in torture.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 03:08 am (UTC)
Found out my sister had the same thing. So, from now on, she just starts with the ultrasound and doesn't go for the squish. My mom does the same thing with the warning that it is "riskier" to do it that way.
unkyrich
May. 9th, 2012 06:18 am (UTC)
Cil and I - the most mature people you know, of course - refer to her mammograms as "boobie squishing appointments."

Glad to hear you are okay, relatively. I hope you keep healthy.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 04:16 pm (UTC)
Heh. When I talk to Jeff about it, I say things like, "Time for me to get squished." It's one of those really uncomfortable facts of life.

I try to keep healthy. Some days are better than others.

BTW, the next time I'm down in the Bay Area will be November when I'm a featured guest at Convolution. You going?
evaleastaristev
May. 9th, 2012 07:33 am (UTC)
Thanks the Gods. Cause FUCK CANCER and Fuck Breast Cancer harder than any other kind.

On the same vein, I'm going to be getting tested for the Brest Cancer gene. Since it runs in my family. I'm am so super paranoid about that shit.
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 04:17 pm (UTC)
Yep. Getting tested is good. And yes, fuck cancer.
jongibbs
May. 9th, 2012 10:37 am (UTC)
{{{hugs}}}
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 04:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you.
deirdremoon
May. 9th, 2012 04:37 pm (UTC)
Whew. Yay. Also : HOW many Psi???
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 05:34 pm (UTC)
You read those numbers. I was pretty surprised by them myself. Then all I was concentrating on was breathing.
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gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 05:34 pm (UTC)
Me, too. :)
britgeekgrrl
May. 9th, 2012 07:25 pm (UTC)
Oh PHEW!!!
gaaneden
May. 9th, 2012 08:14 pm (UTC)
You said it.
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gaaneden
May. 10th, 2012 03:45 am (UTC)
Sounds like a good thing.
highway_west
May. 10th, 2012 01:47 am (UTC)
Woo for being OK!

gaaneden
May. 10th, 2012 03:45 am (UTC)
Thank you.
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