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Refilling the Well

Most of the time, when I talk about 'filling the well' I am speaking of metaphorically filling or refilling my creative source. In this case, I'm speaking about reconnecting with old friends and refilling the love between us.

I left for Dundracon certain in my heart it would be my last one. I was certain that I was no longer needed, wanted or loved by either of my main social groups from California (mentally dubbed the Good Omens group and the Team Volare group). So, this was going to be my last, quiet good-bye. I just wanted to see them all one more time before I allowed reality to show me the door.

This seems melodramatic now, on the other side of the convention. Not only was I wrong, I was seriously wrong. People were happy to see me. I was welcomed in and so many told me how much they had missed me. Some acted just the way they always act: happy to see me with arms open and ready to game while catching up on the latest they had not read about.

It took me until the second day of convention to realize that a lot of these people don't see each other except at conventions. Or, they see each other rarely. So, the whole time I was thinking that they, as a group, had moved beyond me, they were missing me—and all our other friends—just as much. Thus, no awkward moments and lots of good conversations.

Really, I feel like my adoration well has just been refilled. It's OK to go on with my life. Everyone else's has, too. That's why conventions are such good places to meet up.

And speaking of life moving on...my goodness, there are a lot of babies in the group! With more on the way. I don't want one of my own but I can admit to a fondness towards those of my friends.

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ratontheroad
Feb. 22nd, 2011 02:50 am (UTC)
First, it was good to see you :)

Second, I had some melancholy today about the fact that I never see people except for maybe once a year, and then it's so rushed... so rushed. These are some of my favorite people, and I never see them. When I do, it's in a crowd with a quick hug and fast stories. Then I realized, that's why I come back. I want to see people. That's what the thing is for.

I'm seriously considering starting to go to Conquest, and making DDC/Conquest an annual priority for these reasons.
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baronlaw
Feb. 22nd, 2011 03:54 am (UTC)
Always good to see you Jenn. :)
cuddlycthulhu
Feb. 22nd, 2011 03:55 am (UTC)
As I said in my e-mail, it was a pleasure to see you. If you do come down to another DDC I will buy a membership and beg off child-raising for a night just so I can, finally, get a chance to game with you.
astronemly
Feb. 22nd, 2011 05:57 am (UTC)
Wished I could have larped with you! :)
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xjenavivex
Feb. 22nd, 2011 08:21 pm (UTC)
I am glad it went this way.
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